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16, English in recovery from self harm, eating disorder, anxiety, depression, suicidalness
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"Hello. Right. I wanna say something that I thought I’d never actually talk about. Before we wrote ‘Sempiternal’, I was a fucking drug addict. I was addicted to a drug called ketamine. I was on it for years, and I was fucked off my head. And um. My band wanted to kill me. My parents wanted to kill me. My fucking brother wanted to kill me. Everybody didn’t want to take me too well. But they didn’t. They stood by me, supported me through all that shit. And we wrote sempiternal because of it. And no one fucking knows, no one fucking knows this but I went to rehab for a month. And through that time, as well as my fucking band and my family, you guys were sending me… You had no fucking idea that I was in rehab but you were sending me letters, you were sending me texts, you were sending me fucking emails. And when I got out of rehab, I didn’t want to scream anymore. I wanted to sing it from the fucking rooftops. And it’s all thanks to you. So thank you very much." -Oliver Sykes APMA’s Speech
I'm an asexual heteroromantic meaning I just don't want sex but a healthy relationship and I WANT TO KISS A BOY SO BAD. I HAVEN'T HAD MY FIRST KISS YET :-(


I’m sure you’ll have it soon! Don’t push it, just wait for it to happen :)


i wish i was one of those blogs that give people heart attack by reblogging their stuff



Do you ever get like super vulnerable late at night that you just want to spill your heart out and say how you feel because you’ve been holding it in for so long and you just need some ventilation and there’s just something about two in the morning that makes me lose my filter and say the things I would never have the guts to say when the sun is up.

the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day

Have you ever been to Russia?


Yeah I actually run the mafia plot twist

What is your favorite aspect of your personality? When did you know your best friend was your best friend? How do you take your coffee (if you drink coffee)? What are your thoughts on chocolate milk? Who would play you in the movie version of your life? What would the opening song be in the movie? Do you want a tattoo, if so, what would do you want to get What was the greatest concert you've gone to? If you could see any performer living or dead, who would you want to see?


Sometimes I make people laugh (v occasionally though)
I guess year 9 when we could not see each other for ages and it never be awkward or run out of things to say
White with two sugars at least
It’s the total shit all milk should be chocolate milk although did u know I only tried it this year
Idk I don’t think there’s any actresses as ugly as me
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard (I’m joking but I have seen that song live who’s jel)
I want so many but I’m not 100% sure on what yet
Probably Metallica like they weren’t the best band I’ve ever seen but it was such a good performance
Fuck idk probably bmth although I’d love to see nirvana live

Thank you lovely x

What are you doing rn?


Lying in bed with Alex (de0xyss)

i luv u



u r cute


No no no